Wordy Updates and The Meaning of Life

So lately I've just sort of been

It's been an interesting past week

Last Friday I went to a hockey game with my brother's class where I was on the big screen twice

The first time, I was cleaning and putting on my glasses

The second time, I was prepared and did the famous danisnotonfire-point-and-click thing

so that was fun

Another thing that happened was I was sitting in this little cafe with my family, drawing while I finished up eating when one of the waitresses came by to take my plate, noticing my artwork scattered all over my chair. About ten minutes later after she left, the cafe owner came by and asked if I wanted to do an art show at their cafe

It took everything in me not to start crying right there

I need to get painting soon

Also,

I GOT A DAVIANTART

I'm probably going to be just as horrible posting on there as I have been on here recently, but I'm hoping to get more stuff up

YET ANOTHER THING

There are now 44 of you lovelies following me

I don't know exactly how or when this happened but I am overwhelmed by this

It was only a few months ago I remember there being like 7 of you

Maybe some of you remember the little flower that I drew for you all

So here is a horrible picture of a slightly more extravagant flower for all of you sticking with me for so long

It means the world to me

Here's to millions of even more extravagant flowers in the future

<3

LAST UPDATE

(I promise)

I'm sure most of you have already read on Adi's blog her post about the future and how life will all tie together and how scary the future can be

I just happened to be going through the same exact thing, and was surprised at all the comments saying how it's the same for many of you

So here's my little addition. xD

I'm pretty dang terrified of the future

Both the near future, the next school year coming just around the corner, ready to hit me like a train in the next few months, and the years far ahead

It didn't hit me until a couple weeks ago how fast it was all happening and how quickly this is all coming until our teachers handed out papers and asked us what we want to do with our lives

Most everyone had a pretty good idea of what they like and how to incorporate that into their futures

Some people said that they wanted to be lawyers or astronomers or doctors and one girl even said she'd like to become a scientist; all of which our science teacher was very impressed with and wished us luck

So what exactly do you do when your teacher comes up to asking what you want to do with your life when really all you want to do is draw?

Truth is, I want to be an animator

I want to tell stories

I found out at a pretty early age that I both dearly love to tell stories and draw

And I don't tell very many people this, but I actually grew up in an art studio, where my dad was a part of a company who would tell stories through pictures or animation, sometimes bringing the children's stories they did home for me to read and ponder over. It was here where I fell in love with the art supplies and books that were constantly scattered over his office and our house.

Fast forward a few years and my dad had long since left his job as an artist and I had moved on to writing. It didn't take long for me to figure out I didn't have the patience or the skill with words to finish any of the stories I had started and eventually quit writing altogether, but still left with thousands of story ideas bouncing around in my head that I am now finally letting out through pictures.

One job that I had never even considered, where I could tell stories through pictures is animation

And now I have my heart set on it

The only problem I'm having is trying to explain to my teachers and parents that I don't want a "normal job" and that I can still make a living through art and not have to worry about money or anything. I know I'll be just fine. I just need them to believe me.

(As Dan would say, here comes the crappy profound conclusion)

To anyone else worrying about their future,

Coming from a person who does nothing but worry and panic:

don't

Everything's going to be just fine. Whether you get your current "dream job" or not. If you do, then that's fantastic. If you don't, then don't worry about it. That means there's something even better for you coming. You just have to wait. Make sensible choices while you're waiting, but just make sure to have fun in whatever stage of your life you're in right now, because just like I'm learning, it doesn't last long. Panicking is not an occupation, so don't make the mistake I did and make it one.

The future will unravel itself in time, and when it does

everything. is going to be just. fine.

I promise. :)

If my paragraph of nothingness didn't help, have some inspiration from Dan

(Which is where I got my inspiration. xD)

And just remember whenever you think that there's no way you could become successful someday, this guy was a dropout from college who didn't have a best friend the first 18 years of his life and said he hated everything about himself

And now he's an internet cult leader with Phil and they both do BBC radio 1 shows, got to host part of the Brit Awards, and was part of an Oscar Winning Disney movie

Just a thought

And now here is your typical spam of things I found on the internet while procrastinating life

I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE SEEN THE NEW GRAVITY FALLS EPISODE BUT WOW OKAY. I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THAT.

make it stop I can't handle this

I feel like this sums me up pretty well

LOOK AT THIS DRAGON CAKE

someone delete this

Okay so I promised myself I'd never get back into anime again

But a friend of mine got me into RWBY, a little anime by Rooster Teeth

and can we talk about how beautiful this is

jellyfish because yes

I have this on my wall and I laugh at it every morning

me

 

IF YOU AREN'T WATCHING OVER THE GARDEN WALL YOU MUST

while you're watching things, watch this

lets take a moment to appreciate this dress

I usually don't wear dresses because they just bug me I just prefer jeans idk man

but wow dresses I could have a whole conversation about dresses

short story time so I was on the Disney website and found this thing where you can make Gravity Falls postcards with different backgrounds and stuff and I found out you can upload pictures of your own and these are just a couple of my masterpieces

if you're ever in the mood its actually kinda fun

I'm also still in the process of watching every Studio Ghibli movie ever

they're so beautiful

I love this.

WELLL I THINK THAT'S ENOUGH FOR NOW

This post was like 60% words thats the most I've ever actually written in a post besides that one new years post can I get a medal for this

HOPE YOUR LIVES HAVE BEEN GREAT AND EVERYTHING

(if not, try the postcard maker and a warm drink and also you can watch all the episodes of Kim Possible on the Disney website so just a heads up)

EAT LOTS OF PINEAPPLES AND FRUITS AND STUFF

STAY IN SCHOOL DON'T DO DRUGS

READ A MAGICAL BOOK I JUST FINISHED READING THE SEARCH FOR WONDLA AND IT WAS GREAT

and now I'm on my way to reply to all the comments on the previous post I meant to reply to a week ago hahahaha someone help me pull my life together I've been such a mess the past few days have a nice day guys

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