A Few Smoothie Not-Recipes & Other Thoughts

i call these 'Not-Recipes' because of who i am as a person + due to the fact i have never been good at cooking. i never measure things and i do everything by visual judgement, which has proved to create some disasters, but nonetheless i continue. these are simply lists of ingredients i have thrown into a blender in order to make myself feel better while i work

The VSCO Girl Wannabe

 

this masterpiece came in the beginning of june, when i had just come back from grad and like 

the hopeful soul my heart strives to be, i wanted to become healthier this summer and therefore

concocted this.

all it is: frozen raspberries, frozen blueberries, not coconut water (accidentally lied in the picture)

but coconut milk poured all over that, and then some honey. OH. and frozen strawberries.

 The "I wish I lived in Oregon or California, I'll even take Washington at this Point"

YES those are two of the same picture. NO i do not wish to speak about it. this was made

with a banana just cut up and chucked in the bottom of a blender at 7am, a mix of frozen

blueberries, frozen strawberries, and frozen mango, frozen dragonfruit, and some coconut 

milk again cause sure. 

 The Hiding From Old Classmates

this fabulous drink was a result of me trying to experiment with pineapple for once and therefore is a 

mix of canned pineapple + the juice and everything, just dump the whole thing in, frozen blueberries,

frozen strawberries, coconut milk, honey, a banana, and some blackberries. 10/10

The Soft Girl Listens to Emo Music Once

    oh this beauty?????? another experiment. for this one, you need a banana, honey, coconut milk (see

    my disastrous, expensive trend here), frozen peaches, frozen pineapple, frozen mango, and frozen 

    strawberries. wasn't a bad morning at all. 

 The Middle Aged Crisis But You're 19 and Anxious

this one had a weird texture honestly, but it's for the Health so whatever. this was made with

a fistful of spinach, frozen mango, an apple, canned pineapple, cucumber, and a banana. throw

some blackberries on it to make your day not terrible if you're feeling it. 

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i'm getting a car. which is. the strangest thing to me, i never really thought i would make it this far. 

i do have moments of deep regret for choosing my english major, because, although it would give me

more options in the future, i still get an ache deep in my chest when i look at my art school acceptance letters and wonder who would i have been. maybe i'll end up switching anyway. 

i have been rewatching old dan howell liveshows that i used to watch every week back when i was in online school YEARS ago and it's been so refreshing recently to go back and remember that he exists and he is doing so much better. i also remember the fact that i recently bought a pride patch for my backpack and feel better knowing i'm on the way to healing after homophobic trauma as well. he is a wonderful soul. i owe him a whole lot honestly. between him and nathan zed and my own damn self, the future will be better. 

lastly, one of the strangest things to think about is how you will never completely know another human being. how they may never tell you all of their struggles (not all you can see, either), nor 

will you know all of their memories, who they were in the past, who they will become, who they

are to other people. humans don't even entirely know themselves. being alive is the strangest thing. 

anywho

time for another introspection smoothie, i guess

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