A Few Smoothie Not-Recipes & Other Thoughts

i call these 'Not-Recipes' because of who i am as a person + due to the fact i have never been good at cooking. i never measure things and i do everything by visual judgement, which has proved to create some disasters, but nonetheless i continue. these are simply lists of ingredients i have thrown into a blender in order to make myself feel better while i work

The VSCO Girl Wannabe

 

this masterpiece came in the beginning of june, when i had just come back from grad and like 

the hopeful soul my heart strives to be, i wanted to become healthier this summer and therefore

concocted this.

all it is: frozen raspberries, frozen blueberries, not coconut water (accidentally lied in the picture)

but coconut milk poured all over that, and then some honey. OH. and frozen strawberries.

 The "I wish I lived in Oregon or California, I'll even take Washington at this Point"

YES those are two of the same picture. NO i do not wish to speak about it. this was made

with a banana just cut up and chucked in the bottom of a blender at 7am, a mix of frozen

blueberries, frozen strawberries, and frozen mango, frozen dragonfruit, and some coconut 

milk again cause sure. 

 The Hiding From Old Classmates

this fabulous drink was a result of me trying to experiment with pineapple for once and therefore is a 

mix of canned pineapple + the juice and everything, just dump the whole thing in, frozen blueberries,

frozen strawberries, coconut milk, honey, a banana, and some blackberries. 10/10

The Soft Girl Listens to Emo Music Once

    oh this beauty?????? another experiment. for this one, you need a banana, honey, coconut milk (see

    my disastrous, expensive trend here), frozen peaches, frozen pineapple, frozen mango, and frozen 

    strawberries. wasn't a bad morning at all. 

 The Middle Aged Crisis But You're 19 and Anxious

this one had a weird texture honestly, but it's for the Health so whatever. this was made with

a fistful of spinach, frozen mango, an apple, canned pineapple, cucumber, and a banana. throw

some blackberries on it to make your day not terrible if you're feeling it. 

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i'm getting a car. which is. the strangest thing to me, i never really thought i would make it this far. 

i do have moments of deep regret for choosing my english major, because, although it would give me

more options in the future, i still get an ache deep in my chest when i look at my art school acceptance letters and wonder who would i have been. maybe i'll end up switching anyway. 

i have been rewatching old dan howell liveshows that i used to watch every week back when i was in online school YEARS ago and it's been so refreshing recently to go back and remember that he exists and he is doing so much better. i also remember the fact that i recently bought a pride patch for my backpack and feel better knowing i'm on the way to healing after homophobic trauma as well. he is a wonderful soul. i owe him a whole lot honestly. between him and nathan zed and my own damn self, the future will be better. 

lastly, one of the strangest things to think about is how you will never completely know another human being. how they may never tell you all of their struggles (not all you can see, either), nor 

will you know all of their memories, who they were in the past, who they will become, who they

are to other people. humans don't even entirely know themselves. being alive is the strangest thing. 

anywho

time for another introspection smoothie, i guess

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Nandemonaiya - RADWIMPS / Euphoria - BTS / The Good Side - Kina Grannis / Perfect Places - Lorde / Liability (Reprise) - Lorde / Chocolate Jonas LR Remix - The 1975 / Chlorine (19.4326 N, 99.1332 W) - Twenty One Pilots / Leftovers - Dennis Lloyd / Bridges Burn - NEEDTOBREATH / Some Nights - Fun

You're Going to Make Crappy Posts (and that's okay)

This has happened to all of us, I’m sure. Or, if you’re a new blogger and your posts are going well so far, maybe this hasn’t happened to you, but believe me, it’s inevitable.

You’re going to make a crappy post every once and a while.

Every once and a while, you’re going to post something that, for whatever reason, doesn’t get half as many views as your usual posts, or gets little to no comments. It’s sometimes hard to tell why; it could be because the title was boring or didn’t sound exciting enough, or the pictures weren’t as good quality as usual, or maybe you scared off all your followers by introducing a new topic or something, but it’s bound to happen. And it’s frustrating, because sometimes it might’ve been the one post you put a lot of time and effort into, just to see it flop. But guess what??? That is perfectly. okay.

Some people take the message of no one showing up to the party as “maybe I should take a break because I have no inspiration right now”, which is perfectly fine, but others may take it to the point of “maybe no one likes my blog because all my ideas right now are crap.”

I think it was Ed Sheeran (Word wants to change Sheeran to sheering I’m laughing) that first said this, but I heard it from Doddleoddle, because she’s my queen. xD There was this quote from him, ‘Writing songs and playing live is like turning on a tap in an old house; first you’ll get the mud and dirty water, but the more you get it out, the quicker the good water starts flowing.”

This is the same for blogging, or taking pictures, or drawing, or playing music, or—whatever. Whatever you do that is considered “creative”, this applies to it. People who decide to take the creative route in life often struggle with coming up with creative things with all the other creative people out there to compete with and get frustrated when people don’t like something they recently put out as much as their other things.

I mean Panic! At the Disco themselves shoved their album Pretty. Odd. in the corner because it didn’t get as much attention as all their other albums. (It was a beautiful album btw A+)

The point of all this is it’s okay to make “crappy” posts. It’s okay to end up making something that you’re not particularly proud of. It’s all part of being a ‘content creator’. If you ever decide to have a profession or even just a hobby that requires creativity, let yourself make a few not-so-great things along the way. Don’t give up because you’re in a slump or people don’t like what you’ve been putting out recently. If you want to take a break, that’s fine, but in order to keep the flow going, just keep the tap water running, washing out the dirty water, and soon hopefully you'll be able to get back into your old routine.

One comment I got from the fabulous Olivia, sums up the other part of this wonderfully. 

But, as a content creator, do let yourself take breaks every once and a while. Don't completely drain every little bit of energy from yourself because you feel like you NEED to put up another blog post for your followers because you promised one the day before. There's a difference between being out of ideas when you really really wanting to post and completely draining yourself of all your energy. It's so very frustrating to not be making something, as someone who's constantly doing things, (I know because my school website had a surprise shutdown last week and even though everyone kept telling me 'LUCKY YOU DON'T HAVE SCHOOL' I couldn't help but panic because I felt like I had to be doing something. It just felt wrong not doing anything.) but you need to give yourself time every once and a while to step back from everything. 

this was the video that inspired this post. it also partially inspired

 my manufactured personalities post.

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I'm so sorry I disappeared again, I've been writing posts I swear, see here they all are

obviously you've already seen some of these

wow look at all those posts A+ to me for actually getting something done.

Now if only I could bring myself to post them.

Which is exactly what I'm going to be doing now.

Thanks for not unfollowing me during my little hiatuses (hiati????)

I HOPE YOU'RE ALL DOING JUST WONDERFUL THIS WEEK AND THAT

SCHOOL IS GOING WELL SO FAR, AND IF IT HASN'T HERE'S A MAGICAL PICTURE OF PETE TO GRANT YOU A GREAT REST-OF-YEAR

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY FOR ME

DRINK LOTS OF WATER STAY HYDRATED KIDS

STAY IN SCHOOL DON'T DO DRUGS

AND READ A MAGICAL BOOK FOR ME AND LISTEN TO SOME GREAT MUSIC

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one thing that I really love about these more wordy posts that I've been trying to get into is that I'm actually getting better at talking to people in real life, which means the absolute world to me. I'm not so scared anymore to talk to my teachers and other classmates and I've been able to smile at strangers more often and say thank you to the waiters and waitresses and everyone else I can't even explain to you how happy I am about this guys. I'm not scared anymore.